139/ I need a thought

I rush into the busy day,
I need a thought
to take my thinking away.
Outside the house,
I’m in the car, texting;
she can’t change me or my history.
Whatever sadness she brings,
she’s been a good friend.

Every day I get up, go for a drink,
and back into bed I sink.
It was the middle of July,
felt like April;
I was thinking slowly.